{"id":22815,"date":"2022-08-31T08:40:56","date_gmt":"2022-08-31T07:40:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=22815"},"modified":"2022-08-31T07:21:11","modified_gmt":"2022-08-31T06:21:11","slug":"cosmaruri-228-cosmarul-socialismului","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=22815","title":{"rendered":"Co\u0219maruri #228: Co\u0219marul socialismului"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div>\n\n<p>Am zis c<a href=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=9505\">u o alt\u0103 ocazie<\/a> c\u0103 am o istorie din copil\u0103rie cu co\u0219maruri.&nbsp; Ca toat\u0103 lumea, nimic special. Am detectat \u00eens\u0103 un pattern, anume c\u0103 am co\u0219maruri, de regul\u0103 ( c\u0103 sunt \u0219i excep\u021bii), c\u00e2nd sunt s\u0103tul de somn, presupun c\u0103 e un mecanism al creierului s\u0103-mi spun\u0103 \u201dmai scoal\u0103, b\u0103, lepro\u201d. Cum \u00een ultimii ani ( 15?) nu prea am mai prins eu s\u0103 r\u0103sdorm p\u00e2n\u0103 prind r\u0103d\u0103cini \u00een pat, \u0219i calitatea co\u0219marurilor a sc\u0103zut. Vise frumoase nu prea am, niciodat\u0103 de c\u00e2nd am devenit adult, sau sunt prea obosit s\u0103 le \u021bin minte. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Nu-s psiholog, dar \u00eemi imaginez c\u0103 \u0219i visele frumoase sunt tot un mecanism de coping al creierului, dac\u0103 tr\u0103ie\u0219ti na\u0219pa, nefericit, cu lipsuri, e un fel de p\u0103c\u0103leal\u0103 c\u0103 \u201dstai, coaie, c\u0103 e bine, nu-\u021bi pune \u0219treangul, treci \u00een a\u0219ternut c\u0103 po\u021bi avea o via\u021b\u0103 mi\u0219to \u0219i tu, dar doar \u00een somn.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cen fine, eram dator s\u0103-ncep cumva \u0219i mai bine de at\u00e2t nu am g\u0103sit la ora asta. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ultimele co\u0219maruri au fost chiar lipsite de orice intensitate \u0219i creativitate, pesemne c\u0103 nici creierul meu nu mai&nbsp; e ce era, adic\u0103 maxim un pic mai bune dec\u00e2t un film Marvel sau DC Commics, efectiv nu merit\u0103 s\u0103-mi pierd somnul cu a\u0219a ceva, dar n-am ce face.&nbsp; Ultima tentativ\u0103 a fost c\u00e2nd st\u0103team s\u0103 plec din vacan\u021b\u0103 prin UK, am visat ni\u0219te balauri solzo\u0219i care se aciuaser\u0103 prin spatele cur\u021bii printre ni\u0219te ierburi care crescuser\u0103 brusc de culoarea unui verde mucegai.&nbsp; \u0218i m\u0103 g\u00e2ndeam c\u0103 uite plec \u00een vacan\u021b\u0103 \u0219i r\u0103m\u00e2n \u0103\u0219tia de izbeli\u0219te p-aci,&nbsp; s-or descurca s\u0103 bea \u0219i ei ap\u0103 de la instala\u021bia de irigat, sau s\u0103 le las o g\u0103leat\u0103 ceva.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Aloo, vecine, dac\u0103-\u021bi las un sac de gr\u0103un\u021be, le mai arunci c\u00e2te un castron \u0219i la jivinele mele&nbsp; din spatele gr\u0103dinii&nbsp; c\u00e2t sunt plecat?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Aaa, c\u0103 nu, c\u0103 f\u0103 ceva cu ele c\u0103 ne m\u0103n\u00e2nc\u0103 pe to\u021bi, nici nu mai am curaj s\u0103 ies din cas\u0103!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Perfect, ne vedem la toamn\u0103, atunci. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>***<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Slab, foarte slab.\u00a0 \u0218i nici ultimul nu-ncepea mai pu\u021bin dezam\u0103gitor. Dup\u0103 ce m-am s\u0103turat de somn prin vacan\u021b\u0103, zic s\u0103 m\u0103 satur \u0219i acas\u0103. Probabil c\u0103 un g\u00e2nd \u00eemi st\u0103tea mie la-ntors \u00een \u021bara depresiei, dac\u0103 m-am g\u0103sit c\u0103 am ajuns \u00een cas\u0103 cu familia \u0219i am g\u0103sit mucegaiul \u00eenflorit pe to\u021bi pere\u021bii, jilavi de la apa scurs\u0103 prin acoperi\u0219.  De unde nu \u0219tiu, c\u0103 nu prea a plouat vara asta acolo, dar nu am g\u0103sit pe cine s\u0103 \u00eentreb. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cemi zic \u00een mintea mea: &#8221; clasic, \u00een sf\u00e2r\u0219it devenim englezi \u0219i vreme de vreo dou\u0103 ceasuri de somn o s\u0103 lu\u0103m pere\u021bii \u0103\u0219tia la perie \u0219i la trafale\u021bi, e ceva, dar prea pe cli\u0219eu&#8221;.\u00a0 \u00cen timp ce desfac robinetul \u0219i m\u0103sor ultimele dou\u0103 pic\u0103turi de ap\u0103 care se scurg \u00een chiuvet\u0103, g\u00e2ndindu-m\u0103 c\u0103 pesemne mi-au t\u0103iat \u0103ia de la Thames apa c\u0103 au v\u0103zut aspersorul de la instala\u021bia de irigat, n-apuc s\u0103-njur de dumnezei, c\u0103-mi sun\u0103 telefonul. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>C\u0103 sunt \u0103ia de la consiliu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Ce pula mea vre\u021bi, m\u0103? S\u0103 nu \u00eemi spune\u021bi c\u0103 vre\u021bi s\u0103 cre\u0219te\u021bi iar taxa, c\u0103ca-m-a\u0219 \u00een ora\u0219ul vostru, c\u0103 n-ave\u021bi pe ce.&nbsp; <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Nu, nu e de taxe, vrem doar s\u0103 v\u0103 anun\u021b\u0103m c\u0103 vor veni o familie s\u0103 se mute la dumneavoastr\u0103, c\u0103&#8230;.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Ce face, f\u0103?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve\u0219tile proaste le dau mereu femeile, sau cum era cli\u0219eul?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-C\u0103 da, c\u0103 a\u021bi mai construit un dormitor&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Birou \u0219i e pentru mine \u0219i nu vine nicio familie aici, ce dracului s\u0103 caute? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Ba da, c\u0103 sunt oameni care \u0219i-au pierdut locuin\u021ba c\u0103-s costuri mari, consiliul trebuie s\u0103-i ajute \u0219i <strong> au dreptul s\u0103 stea o lun\u0103-dou\u0103 la dumneavoastr\u0103<\/strong>, dar nu v\u0103 face\u021bi griji, c\u0103 v\u0103 vom pl\u0103ti chiria pentru ei, 200 de lire pe lun\u0103 dac\u0103 ocup\u0103 un dormitor, 300, dac\u0103 ocup\u0103 2. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-B\u0103\u0103\u0103, a\u021bi auzit de proprietate PRIVAT\u0102, ce drept, niciun drept, nu trimite\u021bi pe nimeni c\u0103 nu-i primesc, ia muie, c\u0103 \u0219i-a\u0219a v\u0103 pl\u0103tesc eu tax\u0103 la consiliu c\u00e2t chiria voastr\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Au ajuns deja, v\u0103 rugam frumos s\u0103 \u00eei primi\u021bi \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eei trata\u021bi cu respect, dac\u0103 nu face\u021bi asta, v\u0103 ve\u021bi pozi\u021biona \u00een afara legii \u0219i ve\u021bi fi arestat. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Trag perdeaua \u0219i \u00eei v\u0103d pe \u0103ia deja a\u0219eza\u021bi pe bagaje \u00een curtea casei mele, to\u021bi albi \u0219i ro\u0219covani, o familie vero de englezi care n-au v\u0103zut munca \u00een via\u021ba lor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-F\u0103, vaco, nu primesc pe nimeni, ia-i \u00eenapoi, ce \u021bi-a venit?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-Sunt vremuri grele, domnule, nu au avut to\u021bi norocul dumneavoastr\u0103, v\u0103 rog s\u0103 fi\u021bi mai \u00een\u021beleg\u0103tor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0103 duc direct la u\u0219\u0103 \u0219i le spun \u0103lora s\u0103 se care din curtea mea, dar ai dracului \u0103\u0219tia dau s\u0103 intre \u00een cas\u0103. Le-a\u0219 da eu s\u0103 zac\u0103, dar \u00een \u021bara asta e cu poli\u021bie, \u0103lea, n-ai voie.&nbsp; Cu o m\u00e2n\u0103 m\u0103 \u021bin la ei , cu alta sun la un avocat, c\u0103 cred c\u0103 voi avea nevoie.&nbsp; P\u00e2n\u0103 vine avocatul meu , cheam\u0103 \u0103ia poli\u021bia, care ai dreacului erau fix dup\u0103 col\u021b \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eentrebam unde pula mea au fost de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd am avut eu nevoie de ei.&nbsp; Poli\u021bia \u00eei bag\u0103 cu for\u021ba la mine \u00een cas\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 uit dezolat cum \u00ee\u0219i t\u00e2r\u0103sc bagajele jegoase \u00een\u0103untru, iar avocatul ridic\u0103 din umeri c\u0103 \u201dasta e legea, au dreptul s\u0103 fie aici \u201d. Aici, adic\u0103 la mine \u00een cas\u0103, c\u0103-n Anglia pe strad\u0103 \u0219tiam \u0219i eu c\u0103 au dreptul&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dezolat,&nbsp; \u00eemi scot familia afar\u0103, m\u0103 recunosc \u00eenvins \u0219i \u00eencep s\u0103 prospectez la&nbsp; restul vie\u021bii mele \u00een pu\u0219c\u0103rie, aprinz\u00e2nd cu un chibrit, pe care-l foloseam la gr\u0103tare deun\u0103zi, rodul muncii mele, dup\u0103 ce \u00eei v\u0103d pe \u0103ia c\u0103 s-au instalat confortabil pe canapelele <strong>mele<\/strong>. Ale noastre acum. Ale lor mai mult. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0103 trezesc cu ochii umezi, nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 de fericire nebun\u0103 c\u0103 ultima imagine era cu \u0103ia arz\u00e2nd \u0219i url\u00e2nd \u00eendr\u0103cit, sau de p\u0103rere de r\u0103u pentru munca mea, sau de fric\u0103 de comunism.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>C\u0103 am o revela\u021bie inerent\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la co\u0219marul comunismului \u00eentr-un fel \u00een care nu m-am mai g\u00e2ndit p\u00e2n\u0103 acum, \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eentreb ce-o fi fost \u00een sufletul tatei, c\u00e2nd dup\u0103 ce a cump\u0103rat casa din care scriu,\u00a0 prea multe fa\u021b\u0103 de c\u00e2te avea dreptul, voie \u0219i nevoie, dup\u0103 ce i-a p\u0103c\u0103lit pe \u0103ia de la consiliu, nu \u0219tiu exact cum, iar pe urm\u0103 era unu care \u00eel amenin\u021ba regulat c-o s\u0103-i bage chiria\u0219i \u00een cas\u0103. Nu am \u00een\u021beles ce era a\u0219a de enervat pe tem\u0103 \u0219i nu i-a trecut niciodat\u0103.<br \/>Sper c\u0103 func\u021bionarul \u0103la arde bine \u00een iad cu toat\u0103 familia lui.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Eh, uite c\u0103 creierul meu \u00eenc\u0103 \u00eemi exploreaz\u0103 bine fricile, chit c\u0103 ele s-au schimbat demult. Nu-i r\u0103u, a\u0219a mai merge. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Am zis cu o alt\u0103 ocazie c\u0103 am o istorie din copil\u0103rie cu co\u0219maruri.&nbsp; Ca toat\u0103 lumea, nimic special. 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