{"id":25703,"date":"2023-09-16T00:24:01","date_gmt":"2023-09-15T23:24:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=25703"},"modified":"2023-09-16T14:47:12","modified_gmt":"2023-09-16T13:47:12","slug":"cosmaruri-238-monstrul-din-somn","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=25703","title":{"rendered":"Co\u0219maruri #238: Monstrul din somn"},"content":{"rendered":"
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E ceva \u00een aer in perioada asta, dar nu \u0219tiu ce.  Trag aerul pe nas \u0219i m\u0103 ustur\u0103 pu\u021bin \u0219i m\u0103 ciupe pielea pe m\u00e2ini, ca \u0219i c\u00e2nd s-ar instala o alergie , dar eu nu am alergii, dec\u00e2t la pro\u0219ti , iar aia e \u0219i boal\u0103 autoimun\u0103 , un fel de lupus. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cemping copiii, c\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i pierd vremea printre oameni \u0219i hai mai repede c\u0103 nu e nimic de v\u0103zut \u0219i pierdem avionul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mi se precipit\u0103 \u0219i o durere de cap \u0219i simt c\u0103 m\u0103 trage la somn, dar unde s\u0103 dorm din mers cu copiii dup\u0103 mine.  O femeie nebun\u0103 se apropie de noi \u0219i nu \u0219tiu ce zice c\u0103 e zgomot \u00een jur, nu numai \u00een capul meu, dar trage de copii, iar eu \u00eei \u00eemping mai \u00een spate, dar lighioana m\u0103 mu\u0219c\u0103 de m\u00e2ini, de am\u00e2ndou\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0103i s\u0103 fie, zici c\u0103 e \u0219arpe, c\u0103 pe m\u0103sur\u0103 ce simt otrava curg\u00e2ndu-mi prin vine, mi se \u00eence\u021bo\u0219eaz\u0103 \u0219i vederea \u0219i tot ce v\u0103d e c\u0103 trage de copii iar eu nu \u00eemi m\u0103 pot controla m\u00e2inile  s-o dau la o parte \u0219i nu am nici pozi\u021bie bun\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eei fut un picior \u00een gur\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

B\u0103i, s\u0103 fie al dracului, probabil visez \u0219i probabil c\u0103 nu m\u0103 pot trezi, un alt episod de paralizie in somn. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ok, am s\u0103 o rezolv \u0219i pe asta, \u00eemi zic, \u0219i m\u0103 concentrez mai ceva ca Bruce Lee s\u0103 \u00eemi mi\u0219c, \u00een vis, m\u00e2inile care zici c\u0103 sunt amputate , de pare c\u0103 sunt eu in afara mea \u0219i \u00eencerc s\u0103 controlez o p\u0103pu\u0219\u0103 voodoo cu puterea min\u021bii, iar dup\u0103 vreo dou\u0103 secunde de medita\u021bie \u00eemi zboar\u0103 m\u00e2inile fix c\u0103tre \u021bint\u0103 \u0219i o str\u00e2ng de g\u00e2t pe cotoroan\u021b\u0103, a\u0219a cum merit\u0103, c\u0103 nu exist\u0103 co\u0219mar care s\u0103 m\u0103 bat\u0103 pe mine; fix \u00een secunda \u00een care trebuie s\u0103 m\u0103 opresc brusc \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eemi cer scuze c\u0103 \u00eemi aud so\u021bia strig\u00e2nd din ceast\u0103lalt\u0103 lume, de l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine din pat, fiind str\u00e2ns\u0103 de g\u00e2t cu fix aceea\u0219i precizie \u0219i cu aceea\u0219i m\u00e2n\u0103, de data asta criminal\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00centr-o lume sunt un erou, \u00een alta criminal. De asta nu iau eu droguri, c\u0103 nu am nevoie ( sau am ? ), c\u0103 pot halucina \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu cred c\u0103 voi \u0219ti vreodat\u0103 ce vrea de la mine, c\u00e2nd dorm, bucata aia bolnav\u0103 de creier, pe care o suprim c\u00e2nd sunt treaz, de m\u0103 p\u0103c\u0103le\u0219te s\u0103 \u00eemi atac so\u021bia \u00een somn, c\u0103 dac\u0103 a\u0219 \u0219ti, probabil a\u0219 cere lobotomizare \u0219i nici nu e cel mai interesant aspect in context, de\u0219i pentru sotie ar putea fi, c\u0103 ea se culc\u0103 cu Jekyll \u0219i e trezit\u0103 de Hyde. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dar m\u0103 preocup\u0103 care e mecanismul prin care cu ochii \u00eenchi\u0219i, aflat undeva \u00een somn sau \u00eentre somn \u0219i realitate, creierul meu m-a direc\u021bionat pe un sistem de coordonate virtual , s\u0103 execut in realitate o mi\u0219care precis\u0103 in cu totul alt sistem de coordonate. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

In vis eram in picioare , iar proiec\u021bia inamicului era cumva \u00een fa\u021ba mea , un pic c\u0103tre dreapta \u0219i mai sus ,pe un trotuar ridicat . <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cen realitate , eu dormeam \u00eentr-o parte cu fa\u021ba c\u0103tre sotie , care presupun c\u0103 era pe spate, sau \u00eentoars\u0103 c\u0103tre mine, c\u0103 nu am vazut-o, fiind bezn\u0103 \u00een casa de la \u021bar\u0103. Mi\u0219carea a fost tot un pic c\u0103tre dreapta \u0219i \u00een sus. Dar nici dac\u0103 eram treaz nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 reu\u0219eam schema . C\u00e2nd m-am trezit, am sim\u021bit destul de clar c\u00e2t de precis am apucat \u0219i am str\u00e2ns. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

C\u00e2nd m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc la simbolistica evenimentelor, scena familiei patriarhale in care le faci r\u0103u \u0103lor t\u0103i \u00een timp ce crezi c\u0103 \u00eei protejezi \u0219i le faci bine. Lol, unde am mai v\u0103zut eu asta… <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Voi citi\u021bi asta c\u00e2ndva prin septembrie, dar e ceva cu luna lui august, pe final,  \u00eenainte de \u00eentoarcerea \u00een UK, probabil PTSD, altceva ce s\u0103 fie, c\u0103 a mai trecut un an \u00eentreg f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 visez ceva notabil \u0219i tocmai acum un declic, de c\u00e2t p-aci s\u0103 \u00eemi omor so\u021bia, urma s\u0103 citi\u021bi aici “Blogul unui om condamnat”  , probabil dup\u0103 ce ie\u0219eam de la p\u00e2rnaie. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

E ceva \u00een aer in perioada asta, dar nu \u0219tiu ce.  Trag aerul pe nas \u0219i m\u0103 ustur\u0103 pu\u021bin \u0219i m\u0103 ciupe pielea pe m\u00e2ini,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":25775,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[614,1178,571],"tags":[4140,5584],"class_list":["post-25703","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-bio","category-la-tara","category-life-log","tag-cosmaruri","tag-paralizie-in-somn"],"views":782,"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/09\/one-eyemonster.png","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4Eq23-6Gz","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25703","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=25703"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25703\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25778,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25703\/revisions\/25778"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/25775"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=25703"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=25703"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=25703"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}