

{"id":4626,"date":"2016-03-11T06:04:00","date_gmt":"2016-03-11T04:04:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=4626"},"modified":"2018-05-15T07:40:02","modified_gmt":"2018-05-15T05:40:02","slug":"no-sleep","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=4626","title":{"rendered":"No sleep ."},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"fb-root\"><\/div>\n<blockquote><p>Teorie: Lipsa somnului provoaca modificari comportamentale.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>E foarte bine !<\/p>\n<p>Iar cu amintiri . Nu , nu lega&#8217;de \u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/\">educatie si violenta.<\/a> Nu inca.<\/p>\n<p>De mic \u00a0am inceput sa dorm mai putin decat lumea. Pleca de la faptul ca imi petreceam vacantele scolii generale\u00a0cu niste golani moderati, mai mari ca mine.<\/p>\n<p>Tata era deranjat , oarecum, ca-mi pierd noptile cu astfel de indivizi. Ar fi vrut probabil , sa umblu cu niste copii &#8220;calumea&#8221;. Gen , d-aia studiosi si care vorbeau doar despre lucruri docte si pula mea. V-am spus ca am crescut intr-un sat? Ba , si nu e vorba , cu unii din aia cu care-mi petreceam vremea \u00a0vorbeam despre lucruri docte si \u00a0teorii, de plictiseam des restul grupului , dar \u00a0lucrurile astea merg mai bine la un cenaclu organizat\u00a0in jurul unei galeti de vin , \u00a0un pachet de tigari si de ce nu , un boboc de gasca furat din cotetul unuia dintre noi \u00a0si facut pe jar pe malul Oltului. Nu neaparat jumulit cum se cade.<\/p>\n<p>Eh, tata mirosea el , cumva, ca ceva nu e in regula si exasperat de faptul ca dadeam stingerea pe la 4 dimineata sau mai tarziu imi impunea sa ma trezesc dimineata devreme 7 -8 , cateodata la 5:00 AM, duminica, atunci cand mergeam la targ sa vindem porcii de productie proprie.\u00a0<strong>Nu am comentat niciodata.\u00a0<\/strong> Am jucat dupa regulile lui , ca sa imi cumpar bucata mea de libertate. \u00a0Pe timpul scolii era greu sa imi reproseze ceva, sa zicem ca ma achitam onorabil de obligatiile primite. Am primit prin urmare ce-am vrut si am platit cu diferenta de la 8 la 2-3 ore de somn. In vacantele de vara media mea de somn zilnic nu depasea 5 ore pe noapte. M-am invatat asa. Si mai era si frica de <a href=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?p=1183\">paralizie in somn<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Primul 48 de ore+<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4719\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4719#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"400,198\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"overparty\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty-300x149.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-4719\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty.jpg\" alt=\"overparty\" width=\"400\" height=\"198\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty.jpg 400w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/overparty-300x149.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 400px) 100vw, 400px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Derulez la data stelara&#8230; nu imi mai aduc aminte, candva prin liceu.<\/p>\n<p>M-am trezit intr-o <strong>miercuri<\/strong>\u00a0de dimineata si am mers la scoala, dupa scoala am invatat pentru teza sau ceva lucrare la matematica, gen pana a doua zi dimineata. Prin am invatat zic :<\/p>\n<p>Facut o problema, deviat de la asta la ceva subiect de informatica , luat cartea si citit jumatate de ora , aplicat printr-o problema pe hartie ca nu aveam calculator , rezolvat si facut debug tot pe hartie.<\/p>\n<p>Citit ceva teorie matematica, jumatate din demonstratatia unei teoreme, dupa care venindu-mi poate o idee legata de fizica , deschis toate manualele din liceu citit, corelat cu alte chestii din biologie , chimie , deschis manuale, mai iesit afara si fumat o tigara , mai o bere , mai inapoi la rezolvat o alta jumatate de problema de matematica&#8230;. well, asa \u00a0am facut mereu.<\/p>\n<p>Desi mi-a placut matematica si nici acum nu-mi displace , in liceu am avut o relatie destul de urata cu ea si am sa scriu despre asta alta data. Bine , am si fost o lepra. Divaghez.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Joi<\/strong>\u00a0dimineata am fost la scoala , sustinut lucrare ,sau \u00a0teza , ce dracu&#8217; o fi fost , luat probabil o nota submediocra si intors acasa dupa amiaza, dupa un drum cu colegii intr-un bar \u00a0unde mi-am petrecut liceul , pentru sarbatorit &#8220;victoria&#8221; ,sau chiulit de la niste ore , cine dracu&#8217; mai stie. Cand am ajuns acasa, nu mai tin minte exact ce-am facut , dar seara am plecat &#8220;la striptease&#8221; intr-un club , alt loc in care mi-am petrecut o parte din perioada de licean precoce. \u00a0Nu, nu , nu mergeam la futut, desi de aia mergea lumea acolo, \u00a0ca nu am aveam 2 milioane de dat pe o pizda foarte des de o varsta apropiata de varsta mamei mele , eventual grasa si celulitoasa. La 16-17 ani. \u00a0Nu ca futeam eu mai bunaciuni, sau ceva, dar pur si simplu. Probabil ca eram printre putinii clienti care mergeam la striptease , pentru \u00a0dans , discotecareala si bautura intr-un mediu &#8220;select&#8221;. Numa&#8217; &#8220;crema&#8221; societatii se aduna acolo. Am petrecut pana la 5 dimineata \u00a0cu un v\u0103r, am baut de m-am dat peste cap bine.<\/p>\n<p>Am mers acasa, cred ca pe jos, m-am spalat ( pe fata , ca nu mai aveam timp de dus) si am plecat la scoala , <strong>vineri\u00a0<\/strong>diminea\u021ba. \u00a0Bineinteles ca duhneam a tigari si a bautura. Puteam sa ma spal pe dinti intr-una toata ziua, nu scoti 8 ore de \u00a0bautura si tigari cu periuta de dinti). Dar mama , nu eram beata, ca sa fac o parafraza. Mahmur , da.<\/p>\n<p>Am atipit de cateva ori \u00a0serii de cateva secunde la prima ora. Cred ca era biologie,si am trasat niste \u00a0cardiograme pe caiet in loc de scris, dar asta a fost tot. Dupa masa &#8211; la bar cu ochii ca de caine turbat , iar seara am ajuns acasa. La 7 \u00a0si ceva , seara, trebuia sa fie un film pe \u00a0HBO ( cred ) pe care voiam sa il vad. M-am pus in pat pe la 6 si ceva . Am inchis ochii si m-am trezit \u00a0 pe la 8 seara .\u00a0<strong>S\u00e2mb\u0103ta<\/strong> Am dormit 24 de ore de nu am stiut de mine. Cica m-am trezit dar nu imi aduc aminte.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Anii de glorie<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4720\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4720#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"1018,1433\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"ntsk\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-213x300.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-727x1024.jpg\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-4720\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-727x1024.jpg\" alt=\"ntsk\" width=\"215\" height=\"303\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-727x1024.jpg 727w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-213x300.jpg 213w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk-640x901.jpg 640w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/ntsk.jpg 1018w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 215px) 100vw, 215px\" \/><br \/>\n2003- 2004. Amintiri de neuitat din care pot spune doar fr\u00e2nturi, c\u0103 era un c\u00e2ntec &#x1f3b6; cu &#8220;amintiri care ne leag\u0103&#8221;.<br \/>\nOra de somn era de obicei 4 diminea\u021ba, sau mai t\u00e2rziu c\u00e2nd ma deranja soarele. Nu numai a mea, eram mai mul\u021bi. Mai s\u0103ream c\u00e2te o noapte de tot.<br \/>\nObservasem deja c\u0103 lipsa de somn nu m\u0103 face letargic, ci p\u00e2n\u0103 la un punct ma pompeaz\u0103 ( b\u0103gam \u0219i cola cu damigeana) m\u0103 inraieste, ma separ\u0103 de alte sentimente sau sentimentalisme.<br \/>\nSentimentul c\u0103 e\u0219ti compus din furie \u0219i o pereche de coaie mai mari dec\u00e2t tine e de nedescris. De mi\u0219to. De fapt nici m\u0103car furie nu resimt, e un fel de voin\u021b\u0103 netulburata, o chestie care \u00een americaneste s-ar numi &#8220;drive&#8221;.<\/p>\n<p>N-am b\u0103gat niciodat\u0103 droage ( ma rog, am f\u0103cut ni\u0219te experimente pe la laboratoarele de chime, dar se nume\u0219te ca era \u00een scop educa\u021bional) , nu meth, nu mdma, nu Coca ( ca e scumpa de mori) \u0219i nici de iarb\u0103 n-am avut timp.<br \/>\nDar dup\u0103 24 de ore de somn \u0219i cofein\u0103 \u00een exces, uneori trasa pe nas, zici c\u0103-s tripat.<br \/>\nGen, s\u0103 dea dracu&#8217; &#8220;s\u0103 faci cumva pe prostu&#8217;, s\u0103 te iei m\u00e2nca-\u021bi-a\u0219 de cartieru&#8217; nostru&#8221; , ca te bat de te caci pe tine .<\/p>\n<p>\u00cen perioada de glorie o ardeam prin Bucure\u0219ti student, printre altele.<br \/>\nS-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat de c\u00e2teva ori sa ajung s\u0103 halucinez de la nesomn.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Halucina\u021bii <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4721\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4721#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"567,487\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;1436523746&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"sketch4\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4-300x258.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4721\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4-300x258.jpg\" alt=\"sketch4\" width=\"300\" height=\"258\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4-300x258.jpg 300w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/sketch4.jpg 567w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><br \/>\nMi-aduc aminte de mai multe ori c\u00e2nd mergeam cu metroul dup\u0103 24 de ore + de nesomn. De obicei veneam dinspre Eroilor p\u00e2n\u0103 la Unirii, iar apoi schimbam c\u0103tre Universitate . Aveam doar dou\u0103 sta\u021bii dar de obicei de cum pleca trenul de la eroilor intram intr-un fel de nu \u0219tiu dac\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eei zic somn, for\u021bat. Practic, cum ma \u021bineam de bar\u0103 mi se p\u0103rea ca trenul accelereaza continuu, ajungea \u00een sta\u021bie la Izvor, se deschideau u\u0219ile, oamenii ie\u0219eau \u0219i intrau pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine pe repede \u00eenainte &#x23e9;, \u00eentr-o agita\u021bie browniana de nedescris, apoi trenul pleca iar\u0103\u0219i ca din tun \u0219i de multe ori nu reu\u0219eam s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00eenapoi prezent c\u00e2t s\u0103 pot cobor\u00ee la Unirii. Dac\u0103 nu ma concentram bine c\u00e2nd pleca trenul de la Izvor, eram ca \u0219i teleportat la Timpuri Noi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>The Race<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4722\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4722#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"2160,1535\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"nfsrace\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-300x213.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-1024x728.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4722\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-300x213.jpg\" alt=\"nfsrace\" width=\"300\" height=\"213\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-300x213.jpg 300w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-1024x728.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/nfsrace-640x455.jpg 640w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Locuiam \u00een chirie pe undeva la un nene care lucra \u00een vam\u0103 la Giurgiu. \u0218i avea o r\u0103pciuga de calculator &#x1f4bb; al lui fi-so pe care ne chinuiam s\u0103 \u00eel repar\u0103m cam 3 in\u0219i dintre care 2 activ. N-am dormit o noapte \u00eentreag\u0103. Nu e bai,ne pl\u0103ceau genul de provoc\u0103ri, dar totu\u0219i era o janghina de 486 \u00een 2003. Mai instabil dec\u00e2t Fluorul molecular \u00een aer liber.<br \/>\nEram pe grab\u0103 s\u0103 repar\u0103m mizeria ( de vreo 2 zile), ca se apropia Cr\u0103ciunul \u0219i mergeam la om sa ne facem proviziile de iarn\u0103. Whiskey \u0219i \u021big\u0103ri. To\u021bi fumam din vam\u0103. Parliament, Dunhill, iar eu fumam Davidoff. Cuie de tron.<br \/>\nOk \u0219i cred c\u0103 am mai zis-o p-asta pe undeva. Vineri pe la pr\u00e2nz incropisem dinozaurul \u0103la, inchiriasem ma\u0219ina \u0219i eram gata de plecare.<\/p>\n<p>De notat ca eram 3. Din care doi nu dormisem de mai bine de 24 de ore, iar al treilea nu avea permis.<\/p>\n<p>Am ajuns noi la nene, am dat marfa \u0219i banii \u0219i am luat marfa \u0219i ne \u00eentorceam blitz. P\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eentr-un ora\u0219 al c\u0103rui nume nu am s\u0103 \u00eel men\u021bionez a condus &#8220;colegu&#8217; &#8220;. Bine, nu am nimerit noi drumul dinspre Giurgiu, ca am plecat cam val-vartej gen 180km\/h &#8211; blan\u0103, dar a trebuit s\u0103 ne oprim \u0219i sa ne \u00eentoarcem ca ratasem drumul \u0219i mersesem drept \u00eenainte de se terminaser\u0103 \u0219i sate \u0219i asfalt \u0219i tot \u0219i urma s\u0103 intr\u0103m \u00een Dun\u0103re. A fost greu ca omu\u021b mai atipea la drum drept la 140 la ora dar am ajuns.<br \/>\nDe acolo a trebuit s\u0103 conduc eu.<br \/>\nB\u0103i, de viteaz eram viteaz nu e vorb\u0103, dar cu tot somnul \u0103la sim\u021beam a\u0219a o nevoie de a merge repede.<br \/>\nMereu am sim\u021bit-o la oboseal\u0103.<br \/>\nDe acolo p\u00e2n\u0103 la mine \u00een sat am condus \u00een stilul f\u0103r\u0103 fr\u00e2n\u0103.<br \/>\nEra deja noapte. Un tat\u0103 \u0219i un copil f\u0103ceau semn sa ii lu\u0103m la ocazie. Oprim, ii \u00eentreb\u0103m unde merg \u0219i se urc\u0103 .<br \/>\n\u0218i cam asta a fost toat\u0103 conversa\u021bia, cred. C\u0103 \u00een rest m-am \u00eencadrat pe circuitul de raliu DN67B, p\u00e2n\u0103 la un drum jude\u021bean \u0219i arde-o! Nu c\u0103 mergeam cine-\u0219tie-ce repede. Maxim 120, cred, au trecut 13 ani totu\u0219i.<br \/>\nC\u00e2t ca era plin de curbe si nu foloseam fr\u00e2na, ci numai fr\u00e2n\u0103 de motor \u0219i condus la limita aderentei. <em>Cum obisnuiam sa ma joc in proaspatul lansat, pe atunci, NFS Underground I .\u00a0<\/em>Parc\u0103 eram viu! Nu eram mare \u0219ofer, sau pilot \u0219i nici ma\u0219ina nu era vreo bestie, 95 de cai pe un motor1.5, cam ca un Logan \u00een zilele astea. Dar bun\u0103 \ud83d\ude42 . Am ajuns la punctul la care drumul noastru s-a desp\u0103r\u021bit de cel al autostopistilor. A trebuit s\u0103 folosesc fr\u00e2na. Cu m\u00e2na tremur\u00e2nda adultul \u00eemi \u00eentinde o bancnot\u0103 de dracu&#8217; mai \u0219tie ce valoare, dar flutura de zici ca b\u0103tea alizeul \u00een ma\u0219in\u0103. I-am spus s\u0103-\u0219i \u021bin\u0103 banii ca nu l-am luat pentru bani . Normal, ii luasem s\u0103 moar\u0103 \u00een fiare \u0219i el \u0219i fi-so. Presupun c\u0103 si-a f\u0103cut &#x2795; cu limba \u00een gur\u0103 <em>\u0219i-a dat colac zilei, de poman\u0103, c\u0103 a sc\u0103pat cu via\u021b\u0103 <\/em>.<br \/>\nNoi am mai fost \u00een ceva vizit\u0103 \u0219i un pic pe la discoteca sateasca. Iar apoi vira \u00eenapoi spre Bucure\u0219ti.<br \/>\nM-am alergat cu unii cu o Dacie 1300folie, ba cred c\u0103 m-au \u00eentrecut la un moment dat, \u00eemi aduc vag aminte ca parc\u0103 i-am v\u0103zut din spate lu\u00e2nd curb\u0103 pe aproape dou\u0103 ro\u021bi. De fapt da, m-au \u00eentrecut. Erau \u00een spate, eu eram pe treapta 5a subturat pe la 80 la or\u0103 \u0219i voiam sa schimb \u00eenapoi cu accelera\u021bia ap\u0103sat\u0103 ca \u00een NFS, \u00een treapta a 3a, ca s\u0103 le dau NOS. A intrat a \u00eent\u00e2ia&#8230;<br \/>\nDe ce nu s-a spart cutia nu pot \u0219ti, dar am continuat s\u0103 m\u0103 alerg cu \u0103ia p\u00e2n\u0103 ne-am desp\u0103rtit . Cu cine eram mi-a zis s\u0103 o las mai \u00eencet \u0219i am l\u0103sat-o, dup\u0103 ce am elicopterizat un c\u00e2ine pe la 120 km\/h de d-abia am r\u0103mas pe drum.<br \/>\nGreu, al dracu&#8217; de greu s\u0103 conduci \u00eencet nedormit.<\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0 \u00a0 Ca s\u0103 spun o poveste \u00een poveste, de fiecare dat\u0103 c\u00e2nd am a\u021bipit la volan ( da, s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat de mai multe ori \u0219i uite-ma viu) a fost atunci c\u00e2nd mergeam \u00eencet.<\/em><br \/>\n<em> Mi-l aduc \u0219i acum aminte pe tata \u00eentr-o diminea\u021b\u0103 (mare om!) \u00een drum spre cas\u0103 dup\u0103 ce l\u0103sasem ni\u0219te colegi acas\u0103 la ei. Aveam 40 km de condus p\u00e2n\u0103 \u00eenapoi acas\u0103 \u0219i vreo 9 luni de permis, cred.<\/em><br \/>\n<em> Mergeam \u00eencet, c\u0103 deh, era tata cu mine \u0219i nu era ca \u0219i cum a\u0219 fi \u0219tiut s\u0103 conduc calumea. Mi se cam inchideau ochii. De tot. Vedeam masini venind din fata la limita rezolutiei mele \u00a0si ziceam &#8211; ok, dorm 2-3 secunde , m\u0103 odihnesc din mers. \u00cenchideam ochii si vedeam ma\u0219inile cum treceau pe l\u00e2ng\u0103 mine. Era drumul drept \u0219i se pare c\u0103 \u021bineam banda \u0219i \u00een somn.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>La un moment dat \u00eemi zice:<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Ce faci b\u0103, dormi? \u00a0, mergi mai repede , ca totu\u0219i , ai 60.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>N-am mai dormit.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Revenind , \u00a0am ajuns prin Bucure\u0219ti , \u00een via\u021b\u0103, \u00a0dup\u0103 miezul nop\u021bii \u0219i cine \u0219tie la c\u00e2t voi fi adormit.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Alte halucina\u021bii<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4723\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4723#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"660,371\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"hallu\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu-300x169.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4723\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu-300x169.jpg\" alt=\"hallu\" width=\"300\" height=\"169\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu-300x169.jpg 300w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu-640x360.jpg 640w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/hallu.jpg 660w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>A doua zi aveam examen la ceva transmisiuni. Nu fusesem la nici jumatate din cursuri , umm&#8230; nu fusesem la cursuri . Doar la laboratoare , dar m\u0103 preg\u0103tisem, oarecum . Iar\u0103\u0219i nu dormisem de cine \u0219tie dracu&#8217; c\u00e2nd. Am mai \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat ce-am mai \u00eenv\u0103\u021bat , iar seara am facut o ieseala \u00een Fire , p\u00e2n\u0103 pe la miezul nop\u021bii. C\u00e2ndva prin timpul nop\u021bii m-a sunat un v\u0103r c\u0103 ajunge \u00een Bucure\u0219ti c\u0103 s\u0103 mergem la mare sau ceva. M-am \u00eent\u00e2lnit cu el \u0219i dup\u0103 am plecat la examen. Eram rupt \u00een gur\u0103 de somn. Pe metrou am \u00eenceput s\u0103 halucinez de-a binelea. Vedeam ni\u0219te s\u00e2rme\u00a0li\u021bate, d-alea multicolore de care g\u0103se\u0219ti \u00een cablu UTP, cum se \u00eenvart \u00een jumatatea vagonului. \u0218tiam \u00a0ca nu-s reale , dar totu\u0219i le-am dat la o parte cu m\u00e2na , c\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eencurcau.<\/p>\n<p>C\u00e2nd urcam sc\u0103rile la Poli ,era a\u0219a, \u00eentuneric jos si lumin\u0103 sus. Mi se p\u0103rea ca vine metroul pe sc\u0103ri \u00een jos. Eram absolut con\u0219tient c\u0103 e o halucina\u021bie dar m-am dat la o parte c\u0103 deh , s\u0103 nu m\u0103 calce , \u00een caz de ceva.<\/p>\n<p>Am dat examenul , am scris ceva. \u00a0Am stat pentru rezultate . Mi-a zis \u0103la c\u0103 \u00a0nu , c\u0103 nu se poate , c\u0103 nu am fost la cursuri \u0219i c\u0103 s\u0103 \u00eencerc sa merg la cursuri dac\u0103 vreau s\u0103&#8230; Eram oarecum deranjat. Dac\u0103 a\u0219 fi avut atunci un pistol nu m-ar fi deranjat s\u0103 ii fut doua gloan\u021be \u00een \u021beast\u0103, lui sau oricui de pe strad\u0103. Nici nu \u0219tiam de ce, dar dup\u0103 ce am citit \u00a0ni\u0219te studii ca <strong><a href=\"http:\/\/www.journalsleep.org\/Articles\/300314.pdf\">\u0103sta<\/a><\/strong> \u00a0am vazut cam cum e treaba. Pe scurt, nu v\u0103 certa\u021bi cu oamenii care nu au dormit \u00a0ultimele nopti. Sau nu cu argumente ce tin de sfera emo\u021bionalului.<br \/>\nGen, whatever. Am plecat acas\u0103 \u0219i cred ca totu\u0219i am dormit atunci.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Doua joburi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" data-attachment-id=\"4724\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/?attachment_id=4724#main\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith.jpg\" data-orig-size=\"1280,1024\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"agent-smith\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-medium-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-300x240.jpg\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-1024x819.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-4724\" src=\"http:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-300x240.jpg\" alt=\"agent-smith\" width=\"300\" height=\"240\" srcset=\"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-300x240.jpg 300w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-1024x819.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith-640x512.jpg 640w, https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/agent-smith.jpg 1280w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Mai t\u00e2rziu , \u00een circumstan\u021be care poate c\u0103 le voi detalia vreodata , sau poate nu , am ajuns s\u0103 lucrez doua joburi , cam full time.<\/p>\n<p>Am \u00eenceput cu job de noapte + facultate. \u00a0Atunci am inceput sa trag <em> ness\u00a0<\/em> pe nas. Da, pocnitoare d-aia ieftina , Amigo , cred , fara zahar sau alte chestii de tip 3 in 1. Doar cafea solubila , praf . \u00a0E greu sa bagi \u00a0 munca de la 23 la 7 dimineata , api sa iei autobuzul la scoala , dupa care s\u0103 mai ai \u0219i via\u021b\u0103. Iar bani de coca \u0219i alte chestii patentate s\u0103 te \u021bin\u0103 activ de unde dracului.\u00a0Am continuat cu job de noapte + job de zi&#8230;pentru vreo 5-6 ani. \u00a0 am renun\u021bat s\u0103 mai trag cafea pe nas , c\u0103 nu mai sim\u021beam niciun miros. \u00a0B\u0103gam pe gur\u0103 , cafea , redbull \u0219i cola. Mi-am facut ficatul muci , am dat-o pe silimarin\u0103. \u00a0Am sim\u021bit la un moment dat cum m\u0103 dezhumanizez. Nu am fost nicic\u00e2nd prea uman . \u00cemi blochez de mic copil anumite \u00a0manifestari emo\u021bionale \u0219i empatice. Sunt acolo , dar nu le vreau. Nu mi-a fost nicic\u00e2nd mai u\u0219or dec\u00e2t \u00een perioada de doua joburi.<\/p>\n<p>Am sim\u021bit c\u0103 m\u0103 transform \u00eentr-o ma\u0219ina \u0219i era bine. Eficient, neafectat de multe lucruri . F\u0103ra zgomot de fond. N-ai timp de discu\u021bii inutile . Cea mai misto parte e ca te dedublezi. Nu , nu personalitate and shit , desi pot sa spun ca ma manifestam diferit in contextele diferite ale activitatilor. Dar ce vreau sa spun e senzatia de cat de mult poti face in timpul in care ceilalti dorm. \u00a0Nu e vorba <strong>numai de bani .\u00a0<\/strong> G\u00e2nde\u0219te cum e s\u0103 faci 10 ani de experien\u021b\u0103 ( joburi \u00een industrii si de calific\u0103ri diferite ) \u00a0\u00een\u00a0<strong>5.\u00a0<\/strong>Din p\u0103cate n-am rezistat fizic \u00a0. C\u0103<a href=\"http:\/\/gizmodo.com\/5986998\/too-many-sleepless-nights-can-actually-shut-down-important-genes\">\u00a0exista si efecte secundare de tipul asta<\/a> , evident. Inten\u021bionez\u00a0\u00a0s\u0103 m\u0103 \u00eentorc la asta \u00eencet, \u00eencet. Oamenii care dorm mult ,\u00a0capat\u0103 un reflex de\u00a0r\u0103spuns emo\u021bional \u0219i empatic la prea multe c\u0103caturi \u0219i nu se pot concentra la ce-au de facut, c\u0103-i fute grija de dileme morale sau alte chestii marginale, ca pe mine acum. I\u0219i petrec via\u021ba trol\u00e2nd sau produc\u00e2nd chestii nevaloroase. Ca articolul \u0103sta. Sau asta e experien\u021ba mea.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Teorie: Lipsa somnului provoaca modificari comportamentale. E foarte bine ! Iar cu amintiri . Nu , nu lega&#8217;de \u00a0educatie si violenta. Nu inca. De mic&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":4718,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[571,262,500],"tags":[1032],"class_list":["post-4626","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-life-log","category-lifestyle","category-self","tag-no-sleep"],"views":2824,"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/18fuebeteu7kqjpg.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4Eq23-1cC","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4626","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4626"}],"version-history":[{"count":14,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4626\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11522,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4626\/revisions\/11522"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4718"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4626"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4626"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/catalinx.ro\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4626"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}